Old News

My last post is very old news. My truck is back in working order, for the most part. Really ought to take a look at the suspension again and probably replace some of the springs... need to change the oil etc. too... but moving on...

...yes, moving on... so much has happened since February, like classes, the summer, going to my Granddad's funeral, my cousin's wedding, getting into more classes... and right now I seem to have bronchitis... fun... (*not really)

Well, I may actually write a bit more later... who knows... for now I need to get some more rest and hopefully my cough will someday go away!

A Word, After A (Long) Wait

It's been quite a while since I've visited Blogger! Goodness gracious me!

I guess blogging just hasn't been much of a priority lately. But, as I'm having trouble getting to sleep, I thought I'd write a little to get some thoughts out of my system...

Tomorrow (actually, technically later today), my truck should be back on the road. Hopefully.
A technician from Safelite should come and replace my windshield and driver's glass sometime between 8am and noon. Hopefully there are no complications! (Such as finding the right location since my truck is parked behind the CTC where there isn't really a street address or fitting the windshield in since the roof might still be too dented around that area...) However, I have put on my new rims and wheels (to replace the bent up punctured old ones) and they are looking pretty spiffy. I also need to fix the external mirrors, hopefully I can get the brackets welded in the tech department (they're aluminum, which I have no experience working with). Once all that's done, it shall be road worthy!
(Though there's some other "minor" things that need work...)

So I'm feeling kind of on edge about all that. I hope everything goes smoothly. Now that I'm so close to having my 4Runner back together I realize how much I miss being able to get away from this little burg called Walla Walla (or College Place, or both, depending how technical you want to be). Looking back on the past few months I think I've been feeling like I was literally and figuratively bound and confined to a bleak and overcast humdrum schedule of mediocrity and hopelessness! (*doom*-*doom*-*doom*-*doom*)

...but now I feel like freedom and opportunity and motivation are being renewed...
(and maybe I won't be such a dullard to be around) yay!

A Question of Identity

...and so it occurred to me today that I don't really know what it is that motivates me in life other than a vague quest for validation... but then isn't that what everybody is seeking? Perhaps the human condition is nothing more than the search for personal affirmation. Of course people find all manner of ways to satisfy their need for an identity of importance. To indulge oneself (by gluttony, greed, etc.) is to declare, "look, I'm worth it!" and such indulgence provides a short term sense of validation. Of course asceticism is just as much a way to validate oneself, essentially as saying, "I've overcome the need for material possessions (aren't I great?)!"

Well, I'll think I'll be contemplating this further but for now I'll be going to bed...

For the sake of saying something

So it's been a little while since my last entry...the term is over and it's Christmas break. I think this will be the first time I won't be home for Christmas. Kinda strange to think about it but it's nothing too extraordinary I suppose.

On a different note, I was just thinking about how Xanga isn't quite like a proper weblog...it really needs RSS feed and external comments...the more I think about it, the more I prefer Blogger...

Blogged Down

Actually I only really have two blogs and I've just been copying and pasting so they're essentially identical. Nevertheless it seems cumbersome, perhaps even more so because they're copies, to have multiple blogs. On the one hand I like xanga because of some of the nifty features (like the listening to etc feature), but on the other hand it's kind of annoying how it has some other features (like you can't post comments unless you have a xanga blog, which doesn't do much for people who don't xanga but already have some other blog...). And though xanga is free, it doesn't give too many features or flexibility unless you pay extra. Blogger is kind of cool in that it's really customizable with templates and stuff, plus you can pull blogs using a newsreader. The xanga subscription thing is still pretty handy though. Anyway, I don't know why I'm rambling about this since I'm not actually trying to make any sort of point about either site. Just random thoughts. I'm done now.

here's my other blog, for random interest's sake http://www.xanga.com/Dalwan/

Sight of Day

mmmmm... I think things may be looking up...

In life, Pain is Inevitable but Misery is Optional

Chance and circumstance. It sounds like the title for a Jane Austen novel but it's not. It is life. Life is unpredictable, a matter of chance and circumstance. We cannot choose whether there is sun or rain or snow. There is nothing that anybody can do to control the winds of chance.

But character is not a matter of chance and circumstance, it is a matter of choice and conviction.

You can choose to grow as an oak or a tumbleweed, to build your life on shifting sands or on solid bedrock, to suffer in darkness or to light a flame.

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I think I've come to a point in my seasonally effected depression (of seasonal affective disorder) where I'm just entirely tired of being tired. It's frustrating to sleep for 9+ hours and still feel like I ought to be in bed (or sleep for fewer hours and feel like I ought to be comatose). My head aches like I'm wearing a hat that's too small and I always forget meals (the making part and the eating part equally). Somehow winter is always an extreme hardship.

And I'm not going to stand (nor sit) for it! I don't yet know what, but I'm definitely going to do something.